Whining Woes. A Disease I Must Get Over.

Dear Prom, you and I could have been friends...but I guess we'll never know. You guessed it: I will NEVER EVER be allowed to go to a prom, unless it's the homeschoolers prom (which would be OH so much fun, ya know). So, farewell senior prom that I never had...it was nice to dream about you. I guess I understand where my parents are coming from...and I know all the stereotypes about prom, but it would be so nice to just get a chance to satisfy my curiosity (which isn't really the best excuse for placing myself in that environment). Not that their fears aren't well-founded, but they can't protect me my whole life.

And it's not so much that I want to go because everyone else is going. I've just always wondered what it would be like to go to one of these dances that everyone talks about...curiosity, you know? I figure that what goes on can't be terribly exciting...and I've heard some not so appealing stories about what happens there. But I still would like to go to ONE. Just once. I'm a senior and about to graduate for pete's sake. It's like my last chance to do anything associated with high school. And being a homeschooler, I don't get to do much of that stuff. I don't even really get a graduation (not til I finish my AA). I just get to assume I've graduated this June, but it's not even gonna feel that special. So I just wish I could have gone to one dance (I wasn't even allowed to go to HOMECOMING, which I assume would be a little more tame than prom). You'd think that graduating high school right after turning 17 would be some kind of an accomplishment, but I guess homeschooling doesn't count. I honestly don't think I'm going to get much acknowledgment about graduation at ALL until I graduate with my AA.

It almost makes me feel like that's something I'm EXPECTED to do...I understand graduating high school...but getting a degree at 17? I don't think many people expect that. I guess the bar has just always been a little higher for me because I've exceeded people's expectations of me my whole life. So I have to start really outdoing myself to get a little notice..well that's probably not the case at all. But sometimes it feels like it.

Oh well. Sorry you had to read the pointless rambling and whining. I'm done now. Go back to whatever you were doing.