Don't Complain

I'm going to get really self righteous right now. I'm mad. And very hurt. And I may stomp around a bit.

If you have never asked for my help or for me to be a listening ear, I do not want to hear you complain about how no one is there for you!

I know too many people who can only rag about how bad their lives are, how depressing everything is, and how they have no one to talk to or hang out with. Excuse me. I may be in Hawaii, but that doesn't mean I won't help you through whatever is going on!

Thanks to those who never asked for help. Thanks to anyone holding unnecessary and petty grudges against me. Thanks for not trying to sustain any kind of friendship with me. You feel screwed over? How about someone who was here for you the whole time, that you never once approached when you needed someone?

How do you think that makes me feel? Pretty damn unwanted. Like I'm not isolated and excluded enough over here. Like I don't feel like I'm missing out on everything already. You've shut me down before I can even offer my help.

No more mystery in why I don't want to go back home when all this is over. Everything has changed. None of my close friends are even in the general area anymore. Few members of my family talk to me and the rest obviously have a strong dislike for me. Why in hell would I want to be around that crap?

All I can say is "Ouch" and cry, when I would really like to scream everything I just wrote at select people.

Where was I when you were going through turmoil? Right here, waiting to be a shoulder to cry on while hoping someday you might do that for me.

How wrong I was. Thanks for making me feel like absolute shit.