Where We Are

"Sigh."

I lean back in my chair, take a sip out of my glass, and tap my fingers on the desk. I'm so itching to write and I'm sure I owe it to the few people who read this blog in order to keep up with my life to write something relevant and informative.

But I've got nothing. No news. No developments. No hiccups, good or bad. Just the day in and day out of what has become my life.

And I'm not complaining. Things have reached the place where there is a natural ebb and flow, give and take, things happen as they will. No pressure, no rush, no stress. It's all very smooth. Yes, the days seem to run together and I'll forget the date, but I prefer the peacefulness of that to the choppy, run-around, having to know the day of most everyone else.

We relax. We game. We listen to music. We talk. We cook together. We play. We'll deposit our fur baby at doggie daycare and have a date, losing ourselves in the fun and togetherness of it all. We do as we please. And we forget.

Zach and I forget the anxiety, worry, pain, frustrations, and all the unpleasantness that has hounded us since the day he was shot. It was a day that has changed our lives forever and will always remain at the back of our minds in some way. The anniversary of that day has come and gone, and we've done our best to hold on to the happier moments of the past year. Soon after, we came upon one year of living in our house and our puppy turning a year old.

It's not all bad and some days, it's much easier to forget about what is bad than others.

You may judge us and say we are lazy or that our life is boring or that we aren't really living. And we will beg to differ. We are living the best life we could have in this place, at this moment. And what we consider "best" for our lives will change. Our circumstances will change and we will have to come at it all from a different angle. We are just fine with that.

But for now, we are working with what we've got and making what we've got work for us. It doesn't have to work for you; you don't have to understand it. It's enough that we do and that we love it.